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Sunday, 11 January 2009
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is amazing rite now. im doing great in school, stil working with things between me and my dad, and dating someone great. ill be 17 in 9 days. im going to college next year, and rooming with my best friend ashley.(how convienient). i love my job. i work at a daycare and have for 8 months. i love/dislike kids but i stil deal with it every day. my great grandmother was admitted in a hospital in missouri on christmas eve. but shes out and doing well now :) It has been 5 years on december 26th that my uncle has died. i was really close to him and loved him very much. im handling alot better than i have in the past. im not talking to chris anymore. he was a big asshole and i have never felt better with him out of life. that sounds bad but its the truth. im hoping 2009 will be a better year for me. as well as everyone else. im rereading the twilight saga. i love it. stephanie meyer is one of my favorite writers. i've seen the 1st movie.... and i was pissed. they didnt realy match the book that well. and i hope they do better on the second.
everything else is falling into place in my life for once. and i hope things stay that way. things like this usually dont happen to me. but im very grateful that it is now. :) happy new year
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
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beautiful eyes, beautiful lies..
Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you
I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long
Beautiful eyes.
beautiful lies to dull the pain
Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me
I would wait for years just to feel you again
I will die without you...would you my love?blah, i hate this feeling so much. i havent seen tyler in about two weeks now, longest ive benn without him. hes not all that happy and its got me worried. his dad and my dad are driving me crazy!! how is they are just alike?!? i already have one jackass dad, i dont want one for a father-in-law. i will go insane. but i love him so much. idk know what to do. ive officially let go of my best friend chris. i cant stand him rite now. he now decides to tell me his feelings, which is bad. i love him, but nothing more than as a brother. ive told him my feelings too many times in the past and he has done nothing about it. what am i supposed to do? i dont want to lose him forever, im too close to him to do that. advice would be greatly appreciated.
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
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im soo stupid
my bestfriend is talking to me again, thats a good thing. but now things are uncomfortable between us. :( he has a girlfriend and i have a boyfriend you see. wel, i was at his house on thursday nite, just hanging out. he tried doind things that i didnt want to do. he did kiss me and i wish he hadn't. now im confused about everything. i havent told my boyfriend yet, i know when i do hes going to murder my bestfriend. literally. im going to tel him, but how to do it? what to say? grr. i hate this more than anything. it seems like i get stuck in these situations quite abit. idk y tho. i dont know what i did to be put in them...
Saturday, 23 August 2008
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ughhh
this realy sux. my best friend is being a dick. he has been there for me for 6 years, and his girl friend started shit with me. so i went off. i couldnt help it. i told him he needed to control her, and that he just lost a good friend(me). the only reason i said that is because i thought he had something to do with what his gf said. havent talked to him in 3 weeks. i tried last nite, and he told me it was my fault that hes not talking to me.
i dont see how it is. he cant be mad at me for this can he? i dont c how i cant accidently say something and him do what he does. idk what to do.
on top of that, im being pressured by my dad, my schooling so i can go to colledge next year, and from work. im only 16 and im graduating this year. i want to go to uco, but i want to get farther away from the people aroud me that is making me go insane. with my mom working full-time and going back to school, im like another mother. i take care of my dad and my sister everyday.
then i go to work.
so can anyone c how im going crazy? and can anyone help me and give advice??
Friday, 11 April 2008
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life
is not going so good.my dad pulled me out of school to be home schooled. and it sucks.. i miss all my friends.which i havent seen 4ever. and im falling for people i shouldnt and i wish i could be invisible to him for awhile. i never wanted that b4 but things arent rite in my head to be in a relationship. especually with him of all people. in my opinion, age is just a number, but not everyone thinks that. but oh well, i usually do what i want anyway. and it shouldnt matter rite? who u love is who u love. no one can change that.
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- Name: Ashley
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 5/31/2007
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my name is ashley. i live in edmond, oklahoma. im a senior being homeschooled by myself. i love my music. i like secondhand serenade, three days grace, 10 years, acceptance, bullet for my valentine, korn, saving able, atreyu, and a lot of others. my favorite colors are black and red. i love writing poetry. its a good way for me to express myself without doing other stuff. im usually realy eady to get along with. once you get to know me, im funny and can get alittle crazy. XD i HATE clowns, they freak me out sooo much. my close friends love scaring the crap out of me with it. lol i easily forgive people, but i have a hard time letting people in. im my own person, and plan to keep it that way. i dont like being alone most of the time. and i love texting. cant live without it. :)
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